Lately the word FOCUS has been on my mind. Focus at the gym. Focus on my life. Focus on what's important. Focus on who is important. It was another treadmill epiphany. My mind is always so scattered the minute I jump on that treadmill. It's like a compilation of everything and some that has happened in the day and is going to happen. You know how it is, it's the one place where you can't look at your phone, send an e-mail, study and make dinner all at once.
So anyways it's hard to get into that zone where I'm not all bogged down by everything that's going on. I usually have to look down, take some deep breaths and just tell myself "it's time to do this" and some days its harder than others. I have to consciously tell myself that I need to FOCUS. It made me realize the other day though that focus is a decision, it's not a gift some have and others don't. Trust me, when I say that because I've been diagnosed with ADHD and was told though I've learned to cope without meds, I could have them if I want.
For me and I think many others it's hard to focus. Reality is though if I want to achieve my goals and be the best wife, student, daughter, friend, future (hopefully one day) mom and employee I need to do it. I need to fine tune what is important and what is not for that given season. I have desires and passions that could span the length of this Earth but right now the list of those that I'm partaking in is very little and that is just what it needs to be. I find when I let go of those things that are just not part of the goals I have for the life and those of my family, everything runs much more smoothly. I'm not overwhelmed, I'm not a monster to be around and I don't have FOMO (fear of missing out).
All this to say, I know how it is to feel like I should be doing a million things and have that nagging feeling that I'm missing out on something. To know what it is that's important to you and to full-fledgedly go for them is so freeing and when priorities are in line so is everything else. In the end once that goal is reached it'll all be worth it!